my story

Hey fellow soul travellers…. welcome to my world of mysticism and Spirit.  I am eternally grateful that you’ve stopped by for a short peek or the whole enchilada.  Roam around and if you see anything you like, please send me a note.  I’d love to hear from you.

I am a Spiritual Teacher, Mystic, Medicine Woman, Speaker and soon to be Author, but most importantly, I am one with Spirit.  It is my passion to help men and women from all walks of life that are stuck in the same old patterns and habits shift from overwhelmed, unfulfilled and stressed out to fearless and free.

Working through the mysticism of spirit and energy, I have travelled the globe and  studied with the Shamans in the Amazon, Gurus in India, Monks in Nepal and have been named a Nagual Shaman in the lineage of don Miguel Ruiz.

Being connected and aligned with many different lineages and traditions, I am able  to re-connect people to their inner wisdom, personal power and Source energy that  enables them to break free from the bonds of the conditioned mind and the perception of the limited self.

But you know… it wasn’t always this way.  And like everyone, I have a story that started off much differently than where I am today.  So hang on to your seatbelts and let’s take a little tour through the mud puddle.

Now..I know we all have a story.. Or song that we sing to when we try to convey who we are to our friends.  And we tell this story over and over again…. And WE believe it… we believe that this is who we are.

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Have you ever felt like your life is remarkably similar to the lyrics in a good ol’ country song?

Your marriage is over, your tractor breaks down, the dog dies and no one asks you to take a twirl around the dance floor at the county fair.

I’ve had a few of these songs pop up on the jukebox of life.

I have a story…. Rather… I had “the story” and I had it down pat – the poor poor me story with all the built in excuses for my chip on the shoulder attitude, how my childhood set me up for failure and why my life in general seemed to be a constant renovation site … and then it changed…. I changed… I went from feeling unworthy, unloved, frustrated and angry to happy, peaceful and so incredibly full of love and gratitude.  I have a New song that I sing… loudly and at the top of my lungs. In many ways it is a love song…

But it wasn’t always this way..

And like all good love songs, the beginning starts with heartache…. so I’m going to drag you through the mud for a little while if that’s ok…

The tune goes a little like this…

The first time I was sexually abused I was 4……, the first time I can remember my mother telling me I was useless I was 7…… and the first time she hit me with a pot I was 9…….   And.. This pattern of experiences continued in a vicious cycle until I left home a the ripe old age of 17. My world consisted of a revolving door of abuse, one day physical, the next mental or emotional with a few other smatterings of sexual abuse thrown in for good measure.

I grew up disillusioned and believing that I was unworthy.  I trusted no one and lived each day in fear and with a deeply wounded heart.  I was constantly walking around on eggshells because I never knew what was going to set the bomb off.  One minute we were sitting around the dinner table laughing and the next and shoe would come flying in out of nowhere.

I built a wall of bricks, steel and barbed wire around me hoping and praying that they would prevent further attack.  But the attacks still came … and they came in waves. Confused and afraid, I wandered a battleground of uncertainty and became an expert in tactical warfare at the tender age of 8, attempting to manage, cope, dodge and defend my world as best as my little self  could. I lived each day to survive the next. I learned how to lie because truth had let me down before… I started stealing money from my parents and their friends in a feeble attempt to rebel. I was oh so pleased with myself when I finally showed no emotion or tears when the barrage did come.  Thinking that in some small way I had won a victory…

But what I didn’t know at the time,  … was that the real enemy was within and it crept around in the darkness, attacking at will.  The seeds of unworthiness, guilt and shame were planted…they grew inside me twisting and tangling like an invasive vine … choking out all hope and happiness.  One negative thought after another became the new and improved daily barrage… relentless and constant.

I no longer needed anyone else to tell me that I was useless… I knew it, believed it and told it to myself with every breath I took.  I had become addicted to self-loathing and the perception that I was a victim and unlovable became the tune of the day and remained that way for many years.

It’s no surprise that one of my favourite songs growing up was Simon and Garfunkel’s “hello darkness my old friend.”  

I spent so many years stuck in this same old pattern of wash, rinse and repeat….I didn’t know any other way.

BUT DEEP IN MY HEART,
I knew there just had to be something more.

I knew there had to be  something different. You know deep inside that it exists, but you don’t know how to get at it. It’s that mysterious little niggling feeling that really keeps you going.

After my 16 year relationship ended, I was miserable, confused and almost ready to “pack it in”. But…after a series of “fairy tale” events and happenings, I discovered that Spirit had another plan in mind. I found the courage to say YES and kept following the breadcrumbs that were laid before me.

Trusting my intuition that had always been there, but often not listened to, my “gifts” began to develop at a rapid rate. Through this clear vision and direct knowing, I was able to not only change her life, but more importantly… save it.

The moment that I said YES and opened up to the healing energy and the vibration of  Spirit, my trusty Guides, Angels and Ancestors I have experienced one AHA moment after the other. 

At first it was a bit overwhelming, I’ve always just “known” and “felt” things but now I was “seeing” things and the messages were coming in louder and clearer with each passing day.

Shifting from a dark and depressed state of  fear, worry and doubt…I have literally changed my entire life.

I no longer wander the battleground of negative thoughts and emotions.

I have unearthed and discovered who I AM, what I want to be when I grow up and it has been the most incredible and amazing experience.

And I simply have to share it with as many people as I can…because if I can do it…anyone can.

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Because there is absolutely one thing that I know for sure…

At some point in your evolution, you must go within to grow. Not to seek God, not to cross the finish line, not to find the truth, not to be a certain something or someone, but because there is nowhere left to go.

And I can help you navigate that journey…

Thanks again for stopping by and reading all the way to the end of this wee glimpse into my Universe.

With Love and Grace,

Ready to Shift from Overwhelmed, Unfulfilled and Stressed-Out to Fearless and Free?

I am here for you in whatever capacity you need and desire. No matter where you are right now, know that I understand... I get it.

I've been to hell and back and I promise you that it will all be okay... it really will.

So let's connect and have a wrinkle-free, no charge chat to figure out where to start getting you back on track.

I am proud of my Blackfoot Metis heritage. I acknowledge that I work on unceded Indigenous land belonging to the Coast Salish peoples, including the territories of the xʷməθkwəy̓əm (Musqueam), Skwxwú7mesh (Squamish), Stó:lō and Səl̓ílwətaʔ/Selilwitulh (Tsleil-Waututh) Nations. I am grateful for and humbled by the opportunity to work and learn here.